Someone posted for me to update...
I wonder who...
Hahaha... is there even anyone who read my journal? Hmm...

Currently i am darn too busy trying to organize my life.
I just started my part0time degree in july..
I will be having my exams in nov..
Hope that i will not breakdown again... I hate exams!!
coz i got exam phobia...

Oh ya, while i was stressing doing my assignment, i suddenly heard this song, 'Deja Vu' from SS501.
I fell in love with the song and one of the guys..
His name is Kim Hyung Joong, the leader of SS501.
He is super cute and he reminds me of Kunda..
Hahaha...

Anyway, my grandfather who had been sick ever since january passed away last friday..
So, that's all that happened in my life..

If i ever have time or mood to update, i will do so..
Hahahaha...

Sometimes i wonder if people are just accomodating to me...
I dun like it...
Why cant they juz treat the way i am?
Or is it that i am expecting too much from them?
Hmm.... I shall reflect on my deeds now...

Hahaha...I thought I was more of Aiba's type of person. But what they describe about Jun does apply to me...

Lately, I have been very nostalgic. Dunno why...
Anyway, I was searching through this facebook which updates Yamapi's nikki everyday.
I am very curious about what he did on my birthday so I went to search for the nikki that he wrote that day. I was kind of scared that he would not update it that day but my fear was uncalled for coz he did update it!

This is taken from the facebook site. Credits goes to the translator, not me...
PM 7 : 55

Today I slept a lot after a long time.

I had all kinds of dreams.



I had so many dreams that I couldn't remember them all.


But I wonder why I could remember just this one

That is, I ate at Jin's parents' home(Laugh)


Ma~it's yummy(Laugh)



Haha...So he slept a lot on my birthday...Hahaha... Hope he dreamt of me! Hahahahaha....

This entry below makes me laugh..

Hahaha...
Lately, I am being nostalgic and begin to read what I wrote in my blogspot. I never update in that blog anymore coz now I have this LJ. Hahaha...
Thus, I want to post some of the interesting facts that i posted before in mu blog.

I must have read this somewhere before and I duno where it was from:-
Some funny stuff abt Jin and Yamapi...


Jin and he went shopping in those huge supermarkets, looking at furniture and Jin was saying "This glass is good, this lamp will look good in your room..." like newlyweds

Pi has alot of clothes that Jin took to wear and all of them became loose, but Pi can't bear to throw them away....

Pi call Jin's mum "mama chan"

when Pi & Jin went to take neo-prints at those photo booths, the SA won't let them go in, saying there are no girls with them....and Pi chan will say "I'm a girl in guy's clothing!!" and run in with Jin...and everytime he will find the pics missing only to find them in Jin's house later on...

Pi wrote in his diary that whenever he feels so tired because of his workload, he will think of his mum, sis & Jin and feel like crying but he can't cry in front of them...

Jin will often call Pi and say "Come to Shibuya to fetch me" and Pi will go...on the road home, Jin will fall asleep. When Pi gets home, changes to his pyjamas and prepares to eat dinner, he will find his food gone...(eaten by Jin)

Pi will send Jin to work to work if he's free and buy food like doughnuts and hotdogs on the way home...(how come this sounds like what a housewife will do )

Pi wrote in his online diary that Jin has a kissing scene in Anego and he's all grown up now, that it's a little etchi...and he said once Jin saw the diary he would call Pi to explain....so he switched off his hp...the second day, Jin indeed called Pi and Pi was chiding him that he's still such a little boy...Some funny stuff abt Jin and Yamapi...


Jin and he went shopping in those huge supermarkets, looking at furniture and Jin was saying "This glass is good, this lamp will look good in your room..." like newlyweds

Pi has alot of clothes that Jin took to wear and all of them became loose, but Pi can't bear to throw them away....

Pi call Jin's mum "mama chan"

when Pi & Jin went to take neo-prints at those photo booths, the SA won't let them go in, saying there are no girls with them....and Pi chan will say "I'm a girl in guy's clothing!!" and run in with Jin...and everytime he will find the pics missing only to find them in Jin's house later on...

Pi wrote in his diary that whenever he feels so tired because of his workload, he will think of his mum, sis & Jin and feel like crying but he can't cry in front of them...

Jin will often call Pi and say "Come to Shibuya to fetch me" and Pi will go...on the road home, Jin will fall asleep. When Pi gets home, changes to his pyjamas and prepares to eat dinner, he will find his food gone...(eaten by Jin)

Pi will send Jin to work to work if he's free and buy food like doughnuts and hotdogs on the way home...(how come this sounds like what a housewife will do )

Pi wrote in his online diary that Jin has a kissing scene in Anego and he's all grown up now, that it's a little etchi...and he said once Jin saw the diary he would call Pi to explain....so he switched off his hp...the second day, Jin indeed called Pi and Pi was chiding him that he's still such a little boy...

Just a short update...

People have been asking me why do I like these Japanese people? the stars, the language, the culture..
I like them because I cannot understand them as they are way to different from the rest of the world. Their culture, their pride, their ego,  I want to understand them all. Only by understanding them, only by trying to understand them, i can escape from my loneliness. I am doing this coz i am lonely. No one to talk to about my problems, no one want to spend time or understand me. They will just think that i am stupid or an airhead or prideful or insensitive which i let them think.

I am just a lonely person who wish to escape from the troubles that I am facing. everyday, every minute i wish, i hope that someone will help me escape from these loneliness. i dun want people to pity me. I just want friendship. I am tired of being lonely.

Yoz...I'm bored..Hahaha..
I should be enjoying these moments before I start on my degree course with SIM this July if I got accepted.

This is why I thought I want to start on a picture project. I went to a photo kiosk the other day and saw a very interesting picture book. I bought the programme and i wanted to do a similar project using the pics that i took during the trip in Japan. Unfortunately, I am waiting for the reply of my friend to give me her pics so that i can use hers too in my project. Haiz... I guess I hae to just wait for her then..Hmm... I wonder where can i get the pics to describe the NEWS winter party from?

I just finished watching rescue episode 3.
Guess what?
I cried when one of them died.
Argh!
I never cried when i watch dramas...
I guess age much be catching up on me that i get so emotional over such things.
Haiz...'
But the positive side of this drama is that i can watch butt-naked guys bathing!
Hahaha...
Not my fault since the scene is there for me to watch...
hehehehe....

Hahaha...
I know it's way too late to talk about what happened during valentine's day now but since i am a very lazy person, it's good enough that i even want to talk about it in my LJ.

Anyway, what did i do during my V-day?
That morning, a friend of mine got married. I didnt know that she was getting married since she told me it was an engagement ceremony. thus, i bought her estee lauder perfume as a present. Haizz...i guess there was a misunderstanding.

I arrived at the Treetop CSC at about 11.45am. Hahaha... and i thought i was late...



At 12.30pm, the solemnisation started. We popped some party poppers when the solemniser pronounced them husband and wife.


Me and the bride.
Isn't the bride very pretty?


They threw the wedding bouquet and i got it. Well, everyone there were very reluctant to catch it. It's just for the sake of fun, people! Even though i hope that i will be getting married next but i shall just leave it to fate. No pressure, no hurry.

I left the wedding at about 2pm since i got work that night. I took a rest and then went to work. Nothing eventful happened. That's how i spent my V-day this year.

Argh!
Why muz i please everyone? Whn i tried 2 please tis person,e othr person wil gt hurt. N i m e type of person who is lazy 2 xplain myself coz i dun c e need 2. Evn if i xplain,i feel tat they r juz excuses..

Argh! Why cnt they juz let me b?

I want 2 go sumwhere far away where no1 cn reach me! Im so tired of pleasing ppl n feeling guilty!

Hehehe...
20 Jan is my birthday as all my friends and family know.
A lot if things happens, the expected and the unexpected.
I have some photos to upload but I am just too lazy to upload them so i will just write what happen today and will edit this post at a lata time.

My Japan trip earlier actually considered as my birthday trip. So in other words, i had spent quite a lot of money on myself and I am really happy in every single moment during the trip. Thus, I feel that the money spent was worth it.

A few weeks before my birthday, my friend, Sha, told me that she wanted to spent my birthday together. I told her that i will try to get time off from work so that I can spend more time on my birthday together. I told Kak Rohana that I don't want to watch Cinderella play coz Sha wanted to spent my birthday together and I thought it would be fun to spent time together.

A day before my birthday, 19 Jan.

My friends, Xinyi and Ching Hwa gave me a birthday treat at Swensons at Causeway point. They are so sweet and I was very happy at the thought of meeting them and catching up after not contacting each other for quite some time. We had a fun time together, talking and hanging out for a few hours together. The only thing that was upsetting was that one of our friends, Siti was not around. I was pretty hurt and upset with the fact that she didn't come to spend a few hours with us. It was very rare for us to get together which was why i felt that way. Although I really respect the fact that she might be busy with work or whatever she was doing, i kind of hope that she could make some time to spend my birthday with me together with them. I guess I was wrong to actually place hopes on her to come and spent with me when I should have expected that she would not.I guess that she did not regard me the same way as i regard her.

Before the dinner with Ching Hwa and Xinyi, I text Kak Rohana and Sha about what was our itinery for the next day. I asked their suggestions on where we should go. Sha wanted to go tampines mall and told me that she was on a very tight budget. Kak rohana was not really that keen to go as it was kind of far from my her place but she was willing to compromise. I too shared the same sentiments as her. Considering everyone's thoughts and house, I thought of bugis. Bugis is right smacked in the middle of tampines and yishun. All parties had to travel to get there. Bugis also has a lot of restaurants to choose from, ranging from cheap to expensive. I thought that the place is a good choice for everyone.

I told the 2 of them about my choice. Kak Rohana was okay with it. Sha, on the other hand, told me that she had refresher training after work and will be tired so she needed to rest and furthermore she got to meet with her cousin and around 8plus pm to discuss something about some family gathering. When i read her message, i was utterly disappointed. I thought she really wanted to spend my birthday with me. I mean, she promised me that after dinner, we could watch a movie or something a few days before my birthday. I was so hopeful and excited to spend my birthday with them. But when she sent me such a message, saying that she had to meet her cousin, I could tell that she actually do not want to join us for dinner. She wanted to escape from having dinner with us so that she would not have to spend money on food, thus saving money. But I am fine with that since she wanted to at least willingly spend some time with me.

20 Jan, My birthday.

The day started off with my friends sending me Happy birthday messages and i listened to News's Happy birthday. Hehehe...
I did not want to dampen my birthday mood so I dressed up on my birthday. Hahaha... I looked like a jap girl and got teased my colleagues at work for being a lost Japanese girl.

That afternoon, i received a message from Sha saying that she just got back from airside refresher and need some sleep so she would be late and told us to go ahead and eat first without her lata. I replied back, ok. Still, at this point of time, I am still grateful that she wanted to spend time with me on my birthday even though I know her true intention that she did not want to spend money on food.

A few hours lata, I received another message from Sha. This time she said that she could not meet us as she got recalled to work lata. What can I say or do? I just replied, ok.
This time I was really, really hurt beyond words. She told me lie after lie and in the end just apologized that she could be able to spend time on my birthday. I do not mind of it was any other day but this is a special day for me! How many times do you have a birthday in a year? I gave up watching a cinderella play because of her. I tried to understand her financial plight. But what did she do to me? Hurt me again and again. Honestly, it will take some time for me to actually treat her the same way as i treat her normally. I really cherish her friendship a lot and truly trust her. I do not have many friends and I regard her as one of my special friends but she broke that special bond. It will take some time to mend that.


Fortunately, something unexpected happened. I was very touched when my colleagues, Firah, Farhan, Nazreth, Din bought me a birthday cake and my whole shift (them together with Ben and Arakan) celebrated my birthday at work. I was really very happy and touched. They made me forget about Sha's message and Siti's lack of time for me as Sha and Siti are really two of my special friends who I really care about deeply.

I met up with Kak rohana at Bugis. We ate at Seoul Garden and talked, catching up with our trips and stuff. After that, we walked around Bugis junction and wanted to watch a movie but were disappointed coz there wasn't any good movies available. We decided to walk to Raffles City and chatted along the way.

At Raffles City, we went to British India, Nine West, Marks and Spencer,Birkenstock before we went to have coffee at J.co. I showed her my Japan trip pictures and we chatted again. Before we left, I bought some donuts for my brothers.

At home, my family was waiting for me to cut my birthday cake. The cake may be cheap but I do not mind at all. I was grateful for the thought. Well, I guess that's about all for my birthday! So much about it. Hahaha....

My birthday wish.... I cannot tell or it will not come true! Hahaha...
This is not my real wish but I want to fall in love. I want to know how it is like to fall in love. But now, I am into manga. I kept downloading manga after manga non-stop that I am stuck reading them. Scary! How am I supposed to fall in love like that?

I also hope that I can meet News again this year. I had a fun time attending their Winter Diamond Party on the 31st Dec and 1st Jan.

Birthdays come and go in an instant. One year older so one year wiser. I hope that I can be a little bit wiser in whatever choices I make.

Hmm....
I am currently very bored.
I really have no idea what i want to do.
No, how should i put it? I do not want to do anything, I want to talk to someone. Not my brothers or parents but friends.
Unfortunately, my friends are busy, either with work or their own stuff.

I am always left alone, no matter where I am.
I am going to be 24 in a few days but yet I feel so alone.
What have I achieve so far?
Quite a few. I am not an ungrateful person but I just feel that I am wasting my life doing meaningless things.
I do not know what to do with my many free time.

I am going to be 24 soon but never in my life I have a boyfriend or even anyone saying that he likes me. Sometimes I wonder where I went wrong, am I not pretty enough or is there something about me that put guys off..

I am going to be 24 soon but never in my life do I have a best friend who would really be with me when I need them, when I am feeling lonely. Yes, i do have very close friends who listens to me when I am angry. That I am very grateful for having them. What I mean is I want a best friend who really, really understands me. But I guess that is impossible since it will only happens in the movies.

Right now, I do not know who should I rely on.
One of my friends make me feel like I commit a crime with being happy just coz something happen to one of her relatives. I am sorry for messaging her that I am happy but how am I supposed to know about the situation when she didn't even tell me what happen. I feel as if she never trust me enough and that I am just a plain friend, not someone whom she can tell what is going on or someone she can entrust on how she is feeling or telling me her deepest secrets. I guess that hurts me the most.

Some others are just plain busy. I am extremely jealous of Yamapi as much as I like him due to many reasons. I am so jealous of him that i am motivated to be better than him.
He has a lot of friends who he can rely on whereas I do not. I have to beg and disturb them in order for them to talk to me.
He has a university degree whereas I just have a diploma. This is why I am determined to get a degree no matter what.
If I ever had a chance to meet him, I just want to ask is it possible for him to give me half of the luck that he has. Hahaha...

Haha...
I'm supposed to update my blog about the trip to Japan but I can't seem to bring myself to do it. I really love it in Japan. Not because Yamapi is there or what. I just love it there.
I hope to return there again.

Well, i guess i will just try to update my trip day by day.


My parents and I before the flight

My friend and I took SQ638 on the 22nd December 2008, an A380 plane to Narita, Japan.
The flight was ok since it was a night flight. The seats are very cramped and the food was not very delicious, to put it in a polite way. We arrived Narita at about 7am in the morning. Guess the temperature in Japan at that time? It was almost 9 degrees!!!! It was super cold!!!


Our plane when we arrived Japan


The apron area of Japan's airport


In the train, on the way to Ueno


In the train, on the way to Ueno

After we got our baggage, we went to take the Keisei Line to Ueno, where we stayed. Our hotel name is Oak Hotel. It was a good hotel but it can be very far when you first go to the hotel. It would be very frustrating especially if you carry too many baggage with you as you had to walk quite a distance from the train station to the hotel.
Well, I admit that i got a bit annoyed and did say a few hurtful words to my friend unintentionally as she brought a few luggage and was kind of slowing our pace down. But I was not aware of what I said. Sometimes, i should have just keep my mouth shut as it is always is.


We check in at about 11ish in the morning and we went out to the nearby Ueno street. There were so many people around. I was very excited and it dawned on me that I am finally in Japan!!! Haha..

We walked around the street market and was amazed at the shops and the stuff that they sold. We went to Tatsuya. I bought Kiroi Namida and Daite Senorita RE there.

After that, we took the train and walked around Akihabara. It was funny because we actually went in the wrong side of the train station entrance. We tried to get out but we couldn't so we end up stopping 1 stop after it and walked towards Akihabara electric town.

Akihabara is just the like what you see in the movie, Densha Otoko. Hehehe... I didn't buy anything but we tried the UFO catchers there. Hahaha...

The wind was super cold and it always made my eyes tear. Haizzz....

I didn't take any pictures that day because i was too excited. Haha..
That's all for my 1st day in Japan....

Hehe...
During one of the days during the trip, my friend and I went to the Johnny's family club in Shibuya.
It was difficult to find your way if you are a first timer coz the sign is not visible at all.
It was really an experience for me coz I had never though of actually visiting it in person but when I'm there, it totally felt amazing. Like as if my dream came true! Hahaha...


The Johnny's family club Xmas tree..


The very 'visible' sign


Kanjani 8


Kanjani 8 wishes


Hiroshi Nagano in Ultraman. My favorite show!!!


Kinki Kids

Kattun Pics


Kattun wishes


Nakamaru


Taguchi


Koki


Ueda


Kame


Akanishi

Arashi pics! One of my favourite groups



Arashi


Arashi wishes












Congrats Jun!

News!!!! My Faourite Group!!!


News Wishes


















Happy Birthday!





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Color...












That's all the pics that I took...
Hehehe...
If there is anyone reading this, hope you like the pics!

Time passed by so fast and now my japan trip which i had been waiting for is over!
I had a really fun time there, visiting lots of places, experiencing new things and most of all, I managed to go to 2 NEWS concert!!!
I am so happy.
I will upload the pics once I am not feeling tired..
I did have an audio from News's dome concert on the 1st Jan but its not that clear.
I am currently uploading it to MF.
I will post again soon!

Guess what?
Last night was my night shift.
I'm supposed to be on the job training in enforcement but then at 1am in the morning, I had to cover Budget terminal coz the person there had to go home coz he muz sent his son to the hospital.
My feelings?
Annoyed and irritated!
But this will not be the only time that i will be like a ball and got to kick around the places.
There will be much more coming soon.
I am so looking forward to my trip to Japan.
I really wish i can stay there for the whole month!
I am so sick of my job!

今日から私は自分のやくそくしています。
　

1st- to call up Bunka and ask about my class
2nd- study japanese
3rd-start planing for the trip
4th- look and start applying for jobs

Deep down the ocean water beyond the reach of humans, the most magical place exists. There lives creatures such as mermaids and merman living harmoniously with the fishes and other sea creatures. Many humans thought that there are no such places on this earth.

Houses made up of colorful corals were all over the place. Just like the humans, they too have shops and markets selling food and goods. Everyday, life under the sea is full of vigor and activity. Shouts and bargains can be heard in the market. Music and dancing can be seen in parties. Fishes swim by in schools and crabs and lobsters crawled by like nobody business.

Like the humans, mermaids and merman are also divided into clans. There are many clans. The most powerful of all is Serenity. Serenity is a group of mermaids and merman who loves peace and quiet. They will do whatever it takes to achieve their goal. They are non-violent and would rather settle things peacefully rather than go into a fight. Mermaids and merman in this clan have bright colorful tails, which glitters and shine in the moonlight.

Purity is another clan. Just like the name suggests, Purity is a group of mermaids and merman who believe in their pure blood, a bit like aristocrats. They are much more arrogant as they believe that they are the purest group of all. They are the oldest clan and are said that the first mermaid and merman come from there. Mermaids and merman in this clan have only darker color tails.

Serenity and Purity are bad rivals. Both clans have different beliefs. Serenity is more down to earth while Purity are more headstrong. Despite this, they still lived peacefully together.

Mermaids and merman practiced white magic. Each mermaid has different powers. Some can see the future, some can cure. Whatever it is, they never use their powers against themselves.

Not only mermaids and merman are the inhabitants on the huge ocean floor. Half man, half squid creatures, known as Argos also dwelled in these waters. Argos lived in a dark, barren area away from the merpeople ever since they are banished. This area is called Forbidden Place. Argos practiced black magic even though much of them are left and almost all their magic were destroyed. They are now more or less harmless.